My Struggle With Loss

by
Mary Katherine Kohl
July 13, 1999

Lord, I've believed in Your Word just about all of my life,
But why did you take our son away from me and my wife?
Lord, years have gone by and I'm still filled with grief.
Lord, it's so heavy on me that I'm questioning my belief!
Oh, Father in heaven You're in charge of everything,
But I don't understand why You did this painful thing.
I just can't comprehend some of the things You do:
I can't accept his death and I'm very angry with You!
I've been told I should look at death from Your perspective,
But how can You expect me to be that objective?
I can't get over my grief and I don't know what to do.
I no longer enjoy life and my anger makes me stew!
I haven't set foot in church since his funeral, that day
And now even my health is dwindling away.
I'm not getting any younger, and life is passing me by.
So I'm coming to You, Lord... Will You help, or at least try?
Lord, show me how to cope and ease my awful pain.
Show me Your perspective and restore my faith again.
Please send some help my way In Jesus name I pray.
Kneeling here before You I'm hearing You softly say,
"My child, please don't be bitter or reach for a crutch.
Don't you know it pains Me to see you suffer so much?
Remember I know the agony of giving up my only begotten Son.
I watched Him suffer and die for the sins of everyone.
Yes, I sacrificed my only Son, for His suffering had to be:
I can't be angry He suffered and died for He died to set men free.
I never thought about Myself or the empty place by my side,
For I was preparing a place in heaven for all Believers to reside.
So, quit thinking of your loss. For your son it was truly gain;
For he'll never have a worry and he'll never more feel pain.
There's more happiness here in heaven than anything on earth could be.
So, please forgive Me for calling you son back home, to Me.
Oh, I've waited for so very long, Oh, dear child of mine
For you to call on me to help you through this time.
Remember My Spirit is with you. If on Him you will call
He'll help you through the big trials. He'll help you through the small.
You asked Me to help you so this is what I say:
Read My WORD daily and always remember to Pray.
Attend church with other believers; they'll give encouragement along the way.
Please trust Me! He'll be waiting to see you in Eternity someday."

Psalm 31:10 For my life is spent with grief, And my years with sighing; My strength fails because
of my iniquity, And my bones waste away.